Wednesday, January 7, 2009 ; 11:08 PMY
I just wanna remember that momentY
It's already 2009 time flies and i'm 42 sigh.....Heard from the girls their dad is not well again and going to take his medical report tomorrow.I was very sad when i heard the news,cried while i prayed for him.I'm not sure why am i always so worry about him,he had done things that hurt me so much and i'm still praying for him,what happen to you kenn are you outta your mind.i really regret that i divorce him,i was to young to know what i should do in the interest of my children but i make a silly mistake by giving up alan so that he can live happily ever after with that bitch.i was so wrong my kids are the one that suffer for my mistake.i wanted so much to tell em i'm sorry,sorry for my silly decision and that they missed all the fun time spending with their dad.how i wish i can turn back time and everything will be different.God i pray you hv mercy and do not punish alan that way he's got too many kids to take care of and he havnt see our 2 girls get marry so Lord i would like to take whatever punishment for him,punish me instead of alan.Nallur my baby i know i'v been nasty when you're staying at home but i love you so much that sometimes i didnt know i gone overboared but i hope you can forgive me.Zen my darling i hope 1 day you can find the you love and live a happy life and always taking good care of yourself,i worry about you more than nall cos i knw you'r not as capable as ur sis in certain areas.if 1 day i have to leave you 2 urgently i want both of you to take very good care of each other cos thats all that you had and if you both cant make decision confide with Ah Yi k cos she's my only sister that i loved dearly.i prayed for all you 2,ah yi and your dad everyday.