Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ; 5:51 PMY
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Christmas is over n new year is coming ahead,things had nt been gg well.funny after so many things had happen this few days i thought i'll be very sad but im not.this time im very cool mayb i'v mk up my mind that i cant gv in to her anymore cos if i contd to do so i'l be the 1 who's ruining her life.its ok if she dont regard me as her mom cos nomatter wat i do for her is useless she will nvr appreciate.she's a diff person and sometimes i find like a stranger i dont knw who she is.i think this is the max i can tolerate and its time for me to let go,she will hv to learn in the hard way.after so many yrs i tried very hard to gv her wat i can gv and always thinking that she will change for me but hw stupid i am.she will nvr do anything for me nvr.finally im awake and i knw nomatter hw i dont wish her to leave me right now i hv to be mean to her if not she'l nvr learn.i dont mind playing the bad mother even i knw she's gg to hate me.only God knw wat im doing nw.ivan came to my work plc to pass me thgs he bot 4 her at taiwan,he was crying 4 her, my heart ache for him,im sure he still feel for her.i dont knw wats she's thinking hw can she not luv him back.he's very tolerant towards her and gvg her chances even he knws she's cheating on him,wats gotten in to her.its not ez to find someone that luv and care for u so much nowadays and she choose not to patch bk but go ahead to meet some new guys.she will regret 1 day that she lost sm one that luv her so much.Wednesday, December 19, 2007 ; 7:51 PMY
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I'm very anoyed by my boss yesterday.she sms me frm oversea saying hw come i report to work at 11:55.what an ass she was,i reach at 10:55 everyday since when i'm late when i start working with em since 2006 aug even if i'm late i'll sms her in advance to inform her.i was so piss off to recieve that sms.i really dont undrstd why must they always asking silly questions.there's a cctv and i'm reporting to work everyday and they still dont trust me as tho i will not come to open shop like that,stupid fool man so angry.i ask myself whats the point taking so good care of the shop,always keeping the shop clean.from monday till today bizz was quiet,must be the increasment of the cab fare.david said it really affect em.now not so much ppl want to tk taxi anymore.thanks to those ppl who like to complain,taxi rental is so high,diesel is so expensive and hw this taxi drivers gg to cope.i really pity them,they got family to care of.i wonder when singaporean will stop complaining and just work and care less about ppl things.hai.............2007 is ending ih 12 days time.we're welcome 2008 and hopefully all is fine and luck will be with me all time.new yr resolution is save more money for retire and tk care of my health and smoke lesser and if lucky enough strike big sweep and fire Marie hahaha............. wow if i were to hv 2 hundred million i think i'l go crazy man with so much money omigod there's so many things i wanna do man.1st i'l buy a house for my kids then i'l send nall for some skill courses,open a shop for her.zen will tk her degree w/o having to wait till next aug then tk her to do bracers and correct her jaw then mk dbl eyelid for her then she'll become mei nui le hahahaha...........ah yo my god i'm always dreaming,besides dreaming what can i do huh.She coming back this fri and my pressure start coming back again,think i'm sway came as full time at the wrong timimg.but never mind always look at the bright side rite.be happy everyday and live my life to the fullest that i'm gg to promise myself. Friday, December 14, 2007 ; 2:06 PMY
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Oh dear im so bored today,finish the novel in 4 days now nothing to look 4ward to.Shawn came visited me n nall yesterday during our breaks.he's gg to serve army and its 2 yrs no joke man,2 yrs is boring but guys i dnt knw.Nall seems to happy when she saw Shawn but anyway he's not that bad at all.kind enough of him to pay respect to me before he goes in.Marie's dad came last nite to collect the daily cash.I felt so much more easier to work when she's not in town,no pressure at all.went back with nall on our own last nite,sms to inform him not to fetch.think he sense the uneasiness in me,called to talk rubbish and offer to bring me out for some entainment.feel like telling him of at times i really felt so piss off.i dont hw come i dont feel anything for him at all.in fact i hate him,i felt after all this yrs he was wasting my time and..............i dnt knw what else to say abt him,one thing i can say is SELFISH the word.Why cant all guys disappear in this world,i really feel that guys r childish as hell and they 1 to show off hw well they can handle problem but no...........they'r stupid.they like hurting our feelings and lucky for me i dont gv a damn of him at all.if his not happy with me fine he can go nobdy stpg him,better still leave me alone.so...................................................bored hw cm no ppl one today,hopefully after break there'l b more ppl 4 me to open salesThursday, December 13, 2007 ; 12:03 PMY
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I'm very lost,she's giving me trouble again.i really dont undrestd whats she's thinking,she's building walls and i cant reach her,its very frastrated when u keep on trying and trying and at the other side she's trying to block u out.to her i'm not a wonderful mom but i'v tried my very best to give her the attention n luv but to her its always not enough.i dont know what went wrong for the past few yrs or did i not being strick enough to her.she use to be my baby angel but now she's some1 that i really dont know she's like a stranger to me.who can i turn to im desperate 4 help.im i not giving her enough love n attention,after all the hard work and sacrifice when cant she just come to her sense.ppl constantly telling me to be patient even my ex is not being surpportive when he knew whats happening to he's baby instead he choose to spoil n pamper n shower her with more love more money.he is trying to ruin her life,but he does not know cos he tot thats the only way to let him felt less guilty of him leaving her 4 another woman.and he doesnt knw that by doing this he's not helping her,he's ruining her and how can i pull her out,i dont knw im lost,i got no one to turn to only God knws what im going thru.Bibile tot us not to hate but hw can i not.he left me 4 another woman,fine.but nw he's trying to ruin my baby's life and future hw can i not hate him.i will never forgive if anything happen to my baby,NEVER! Tuesday, December 11, 2007 ; 12:17 PMY
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was happy to met up with some of the old friends at alan wedding receptn on sunday.everybody didnt change much except that our age did really increase and everybody is facing their own problems,hai...........................when can the world stop giving us problems and unhappiness. My time is over i just pray hard for my 2 angel that 1 day they will find their true love,some1 that appreciate them and love them forever,thats my only wish.im going to try to save as much money as possible so that i can start going holiday once a year,its useless to stay in this stupid country all year and not gg out to c the world.hope will find someone when i go holiday hahaha......and happily ever after.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007 ; 6:29 PMY
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It's so boring today sales wasnt good n she sms to say siily things like i never push hard enough.No ppl not i dnt push.i'm very sian also.Its already 6.32 and still not here to give us our pay yet.yesterday said today and hopefully later she will come.if everyday like that i sure die 1.Nall came to work today,bought her bread and share bee hoon with her.REALLY feel like sleeping especially under this kinda lightings it make even more sleepy.time past very slow today.AH................................very bored man.looking 4ward to sign the ipl package not cheap but think thats my only leisure.hardly hv time during my 2 days off,so many house work to do.this saturday is david's birthday will be going dinner with him.bought him hugo boss perfume hope he'll like it but anyway nomatter what a i buy he also like 1.after saturday,sunday wedding reception lunch at sentosa ah...busy weekend must be very tired i assume.Zen sponsor $100 for the ang pow so i dnt hv to come out so much.wonder she'll come with pay or not haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.