Saturday, January 31, 2009 ; 10:52 PMY
I just wanna remember that momentY
It's the sixth day of lunar new year,this year had been very quiet.as usual been to moms side of relatives place for the 1st 2 days and rod at home for the next 2 days till fri went back to work.got $300 ang pow from company thought was too little but didnt want to think too much about it.there's a little unhappiness bout my job thought that i cant trust her cos nomatter how hard i work she will not appreciate so now i take things very easily.now i end work at 1pm instead of 3pm on sat cos i dont wanna stay there for no reason,there's no need 2 person in there at all.I'm very disppted with Alan and i told myself that i'm going to totally wash my hands off him.i'm very thankful for my 2 angels that God had gvgn to me,w/o them life will be meaningless.now i realise altho Alan left me but thats not the worst thing in my life cos i had my 2 dearest baby by my side always loving me and care for me and thats the greatest gift of all halilluya praise the Lord.funny after i'v mk up my mind not to interfer with alan bzness,i dont feel sad anymore even when i think bout his results of the tumor.aftr he blame me for everything i realise i'v been doing too much and its not appreciated,what a fool i am.as i grow older i became smarter and see things differently and also handle things with care.life wasnt easy for anyone i can say that it need to go thru alot and learn lots of lesson to gain all the life experience.i hope and wish my 2 girls dont have to suffer as much as me to learn their lesson.i'll always be there for them nomatter what difficulties they face.i will not be like their father always gvg them the wrong attention.Live my life in happiness and forget about all the sorrowness cos we can only look forward and not backwards.