Wednesday, December 31, 2008 ; 9:50 PMY
I just wanna remember that momentY
It's 9.50pm on the last day of the year and the world is counting down for 2008 and gg to welcome 2009.i'm staying at home alone this year not gg anywhr perhaps i'm getting old and afraid of noisy plc or mayb i'm trying to avoid noisy plc or mayb my gals r not wif me 29 tt's y i'm stay at home alone haha watever it is hmmm it dsnt matter.Nall sms me greeting i'm very happy everytime i received her smses and i cried when i realise tt hw thougthful she is.i really missed her i'm not sure whether she knw or not.Lately i notice my health wasnt really well and im so scared tt i mite just die without seeing her get married and Zen not having a bf.i wish i'l die 1st den alan so tt they dnt hv to take care of me,i dnt want to be a burden to them.God pls forgive me for silly decision to divorce their dad and let my children suffer for my mistake if i cn turn back time i will tolerate watever alan did and make my childrens life happier.i'm so sorry to my 2 dear baby.spoke to alan yesterday and manage to gv him a gd lecture hope tt he cn spend more quality time wif nall n zen alone without jenny's presence i knw this is wat nall wanted so much.i just hope they will be more close to thier dad cos i believed alan missed their company too.i pray for alan health get better each day.Happy new year.