Monday, December 15, 2008 ; 10:39 PMY
I just wanna remember that momentY
Back from bali about a week,didn't enjoy the trip much will not go back in future.I'v got a bad headache today and went for tiuna i think its due to my veins are all tied up like knots.i'm worried that it might be tumor cos there are some similiar symtomps but i really hope its not what i think it is.met cindy my long time friend had lunch and coffee chat for awhile.think its about time i start meeting my friends and not always staying at home after work.i really need to expand my social life .Zen is growing to young adult and one day she will marry and leave me and i'll be all alone.Nall's already moved out and staying with her bf and i really dont wanna be a burden to either one of them.i knew i'm selfish always throwing all the responsibility to zen but what can i do,nall's always out and i'm so scared that she wont want to take care of me when i'm old.i dont know really i just wanna live happily and hope that i can see both my girls find thier happiness and have a blissfull marriage and thats all i'm wishing.all the god in heaven pls give my two princess your blessings and always keep them safe.