Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ; 5:51 PMY
I just wanna remember that momentY
Christmas is over n new year is coming ahead,things had nt been gg well.funny after so many things had happen this few days i thought i'll be very sad but im not.this time im very cool mayb i'v mk up my mind that i cant gv in to her anymore cos if i contd to do so i'l be the 1 who's ruining her life.its ok if she dont regard me as her mom cos nomatter wat i do for her is useless she will nvr appreciate.she's a diff person and sometimes i find like a stranger i dont knw who she is.i think this is the max i can tolerate and its time for me to let go,she will hv to learn in the hard way.after so many yrs i tried very hard to gv her wat i can gv and always thinking that she will change for me but hw stupid i am.she will nvr do anything for me nvr.finally im awake and i knw nomatter hw i dont wish her to leave me right now i hv to be mean to her if not she'l nvr learn.i dont mind playing the bad mother even i knw she's gg to hate me.only God knw wat im doing nw.ivan came to my work plc to pass me thgs he bot 4 her at taiwan,he was crying 4 her, my heart ache for him,im sure he still feel for her.i dont knw wats she's thinking hw can she not luv him back.he's very tolerant towards her and gvg her chances even he knws she's cheating on him,wats gotten in to her.its not ez to find someone that luv and care for u so much nowadays and she choose not to patch bk but go ahead to meet some new guys.she will regret 1 day that she lost sm one that luv her so much.