Friday, November 30, 2007 ; 11:34 AMY
I just wanna remember that momentY
It's last day of the month,so happy cos pay day coming soon.tomorrow we'r gg for SHOW's concert so excited cos this is the 1st time i watch.Havnt been talking alot to Nall this week was piss off that she brought her friend home to sleep even tho i ask her not to.Sometime i really dont knw wats she's thinking.It hurt alot to knw that i'm not her 1st priorty cos at her blog i realize i dont stand a chance to be mention.nomatter how much i care or love her,she wont recipocrate.i felt sad and disappt with her,she never realize how hard life was,cos she still need her dad to gv her money.at her age if she really want she cn find a full time job to surpport herself.she's just too fortunate.why after so many years she still wont cm to her sense when then will she wake up.its my fault i didnt discipline em when young,now im the 1 who suffer.both girls but none is helpful when it comes to chores.how long more can i do,they think that im always that strong and physically always that fit.how i wish i will just die like that w/o any warning cos at times i feel weak in heart and soul but they just simply dont care.why am i in this world for,god u created me but let me go thru all this why????????????I ever tot of running away from my kids cos they are so selfish,they alwys think of themselves only.how abt me who cares for me when im feeling down,whos there for me when feeling ill,whos there when im feeling lonely,nobody and yet i choose not to run away from em cos i love em too much.how can i bare to leave em all by themselves when they are so dependent on me.its not been ez since the day me and alan go separate ways.Marie just pop in hope she didnt see me crying gotta end here.